direction

try to rectify
i really miss it
i gonna find the way out

一年就这样结束了

我的人生旅途总是比别人“勇往直前”
原因是因为我总是不管前后左右，
额头挂个“勇”字，
加上固执，不理前因后果，
就往前冲！！！冲冲冲！！！
一条小鱼住在小河里，
常常为了见识这个世界，
不时就游到大海去，
看看什么是风浪，
受了伤又游回小河，
休养够了又贪玩再游到大海去，
能做到这样，不怕痛不怕受伤，
不是因为我的本事，而是因为，
因为我有你们，有一群永远都帮我疗伤的朋友，
在我需要你们的时候，永远挺我的贵人！
万分的感谢，没有你们，
我的生活都是苦涩的，
你们让我有甜蜜，笑容和幸福。。。。

永远记在心里的中学朋友
我的一群猪朋狗友，绝对是很好品种的猪和狗阿！
哈哈哈。。。我们的人数不多，
但是高矮肥瘦，爱读书不爱读书，好人坏人，乖和坏的，个性全然不同，
这五年来，有你们的扶持，带来的欢乐，
永远铭记在心。
雯雯：没有你，我的中学生活都不知道怎么开始，你可以说是陪我成长的好朋友，
无依无靠去到一所完全不认识的中学，你就是我的依靠，
我们虽然没机会一起读大学，但是人各有志，
大家往自己的方向去发展，我们不是平行线，有一天一定会碰见，
说不定，我们心里早已经碰见。一种默契，不需要言语来表达，无言的约定，
永远谢谢你做我的听众，感谢你扶持我，陪伴我，
扶我一把，我深深的祝福你幸福快乐，
要记住我这个会为朋友两肋插刀的将家禽！
佳芹非此家禽。。。
甄甄：你永远都是笑的，那么就不见，要脑海里想起你，看到你的画面，都是笑的，
看到你，让我觉得生活就是应该要笑，快乐痛苦都是一天，
你啊，也可以说是zat我最多最多的人，哈哈，
不过也是激发我的人，看到你的勤劳和人生态度，
我就会告诉自己别那么懒，积极点，
所以现在很懒惰，哈哈哈哈，
谢谢你当我是你的朋友，帮我听通告然后把消息通知我，
最好还是借我你的功课答案，
其实最重要的是，你到了很多欢乐给我，
你记得，不开心事要说出来，自己吞下去，没人了解的，
祝你前途无可限量！！
美芳：你是最气死我的一个，也是那么多个里面，帮你最多的，
毕业后还是接到你的电话最多，不过也好，证明自己很有用，
哈哈哈，我们当中，你的体型和个性完全倒反的，（没有要讽刺你的意思）
你看起来最大只，但是让我觉得你是最小的，的确是啦，
永远让人担心的小妹，我在家是最小的，但是因为你，
让我有机会学会照顾人，
你其实有自己的潜力，积极点，你也会有个春天的。
曾经做过我的出气筒，谢谢和抱歉，
谢谢你听我吐苦水，谢谢你体谅我的自我中心，
抱歉对你那么凶，
希望你一天比一天好！
楸茵：第一句先说“阿一鲍鱼”，
对我而言，意思不在鲍鱼，而是阿一，因为你，我觉得我还有个大家姐，
你的个性绝对是做number 1 的角色，大姐的风范，
跟你相处，我知道什么是大方，什么是随便，不斤斤计较，
跟你相比，我觉得自己好像特别小气，蛮不讲理，
从你的身上，我看到自己的缺点，让我觉得要改，
我从来没有看过你发脾气，你总是那么的好，随和，我很佩服你的耐力，
敬佩！！你也是个很积极的人，我觉得自己更应该活在当下，面对现实，
有你这个大姐肯定是幸福的，你在，问题就好像不是问题了，尤其下厨阿
希望你梦想成真。。。。

freak out

i am going to freak out!!
gonna insane!!!
but i wan to thanks all my buddies,
all yo greets and supports!!!
i always keep inside my heart!!!
and i miss your 10ports

clear my mind

everything will be fine
everything will be good
everything will be pretty

................
can we pretend the airplane in the night sky are like shooting stars??
if i really could use to make wish now make wish now make wish,
wish, ship reached and the bridge will be ready

wish~

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)

i wanna cry~~

i dunno wat feeling right now,,,,
i so confused, despaired, miserable,
i dunno wat i can do now,
i so stress!!!
i very stresssssss!!!!!
i think i soon will crazy.
my life is very imbalance rite now,
i should study, focus on study,
but now my brain all think about finding job,
what the hell!
i shouldnt like tat,
but i know since i finish exam,
the working stress sure come,
now is the time already,
y so fast ?
i hate myself being like tat,
i wanna control my own life,
i dun wan being control,
i should rectify tat,
control the situation,
juz do watever i want and i can,
dont ever force myself do something i dun like,
i can ok!!!
never give up,
never die!!!!


i dunno this feeling can last for how long,
i dunno when i can rectify it,
i dunno when everything become smooth,
i dunno, i dunno, i dunno,
i also a normal human,
i m juz 19,
i should do 19 should do,
not 29 ok,
I DUNNO!!!!!!!!!!
i m tired, when i can enjoy my truly teenager life??
a simple life,,,burst~

missing

miss u but i know better dun disturb u,
give u space is wat we want,
i hope tat u wont read my blog,
i know impossible,
actually i juz dun wan to purposely to tell u something by my blog,
because continuously, it wil become worse,
i dun wan blog become a tool or media to transfer my msg to u,
no other special meaning,,,,
when time gone, my blog wil become very fake,,,
i not wish to be like tat

U MAKE ME SMILE

You´re better then the best
I´m lucky just to linger in your life
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow that´s right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me
Lets me know that it´s ok yeah it´s ok
And the moments when my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed
Sing like a bird
Dizzy in my head
Spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold
Buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile

Even when you´re gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking through the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that

today's mood -- fluctuated like cosine graph

Today my mood was going up and down like the cosine graph,
happy unhappy and unhappy happy,
In the early morning, i couldn't wake up on time because too sleepy due to night mare during the whole night, haiz....raining day some more, of course, i was late for the first account class, about 20 minutes..
moody and moody
so happy when went out and hang out with my friends -
mei xian, su kheng, hwei hwei, si xin, jasmine, amanda, praise and sharnali...
so happy because i bought a lot of cheap stuff!!!
they brought me to find low price stuff,
i bought earings, dress, accessories...
firstly, went to wendy at timesquare, my favourite burger and fries,
i love so much so happy!
then heading to sg wang,
shopped a lot of clothes shops,
i never regret what i bought today,
because is worth!
finally i wanted to go pavilion, because i want to find guy laroche wallet!
because too late already,
no one wants to follow me there but only mei xian accompany me,
mei xian, i appreciate u, thanks
without wasting any time, we directly walked into parkson and the women department,
stepped on the guy laroche counter and so disappointed,
2 reasons, firstly i hate elle, they mix elle and guy laroche together!
how come like that??!!
secondly of course i cant find the design i want...
walked the whole day from timesquare to sg wang and the pavilion,
i already tired, disappointed and wanted to give up at that moment,
but out of a sudden, i tell myself i cant give up like only!
i must try my very best to find it out,
then i asked permission from mei xian,
actually not, i was just like telling her only, she got no chance to choose at all,
i told her try to find at men department,
see whether available or not,
went to the 5th floor,
only can see guys clothes and shirt,
i cannot see any wallets,
i wish to ask the promoter there,
but i so lazy and because i sure they will answer me "i not sure", or maybe "i dunno",
i feeling so tired and stopped at a particular place,
and telling mei xian i gonna give up,
but actually i was standing in front of the guy laroche counter,
what a faith,
fine,
i so happy and so excited when i saw the wallet i want in the glass display,
so nervous!! i must get the correct one!!
finally, i can!!
i bought it, so happy, very happy, super happy!
but i got a bit hurt, when being scolded chisin,
nothing actually, i know not purposely,
but i still not manage to go 1u,
i have nothing left to say already.
this week i really realise so many things,
i know more now,
i know what the exactly happening now,
should be more sheng muk now,
sometimes we should learn how to let go,
i so confusing actually, sometimes...
but when days and days come,
i know what should i do clearer and clearer,
i can control the situation,
i can do it!!!!
badminton session was very productive, tiring, enjoying and satisfying,
i hit by friends with shuttle cocks,
2 times by 2 guys,
but i hate be your burden...

Guy Laroche!!!

i must buy u!!!!!!!
i sure can find out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

了解

人家说“因了解而分开”
也有人说“分手吧，因为互不了解”
“了解”这个词，真的很恐怖。。。
了解分开，不了解也分开，
但是，往往，我就选择要去了解，
今天，应该说，这个礼拜来，
我了解了很多。。。
但是，原来了解，
不需要说出来，
全部都用，心，去感受，
我更了解你，就越看透你，
那么就知道，
该怎么做让你最舒服，
知道你要什么，
不要什么，
很简单的一个心理感受，
很清楚知道，
你不属于我，
你也不想做月亮了

neutral

这个词，在中文是什么？
我不知道，
中立？
并不然，因为并不能表达我的心情，
我不想些什么，
也由不得我想，
一切淡淡的来，
淡淡地去，
因为，就是因为neutral
不过于开心，不过于伤心，
一切适中就好！

保持乐观。。。